The ups and downs

Trapped in this little city for around 17years and I'll be leaving on july 20th, approximately several weeks left to enjoy medan. I'm not so ready to leave but the fact force me to leave this lovely little city and go aboard for my further study. I'm now enjoying my tuition holidays but I got zillion ielts papers to finish. ahhh I should consider it 100times not to assume this as holiday its supposed to be called as "Torture". Unfortunately my laziness is attacking me. I haven't done any papers yet, I'm good at wasting time seriously. I don't how to get rid with this disease. I hope the most genius and brilliant scientist can find a way or medicine to cure this disease hahahaha maybe I'm dreaming for that kind of thing. Okay I think this is enough. Nobody really cares if we are miserable so we might as well smile and be happy :D

Chris Brown Feat. Justin Bieber - Next To You

I Want To Know What Love Is

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when Im colder

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

I'm gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me
Ive got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me

In my life! there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
I cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
And I wanna feel, I want to feel what love is
And I know, I know you can show me

show me

I wanna know what love is, lets talk about love
I want you to show me, I wanna feel it too
I wanna feel what love is, I want to feel it too
And I know and I know, I know you can show me
Show me love is real, yeah
I wanna know what love is

Pointless

I don't feel like blogging nowadays. I just randomly post some picture with quotes in it that describes me the best.




hugs & kisses, ♥

Never grow up

I feel like a dumb, I bet you guys know how its feel like. I'm so far from the word spelled "p e r f e c t". I'll face my ielts in July and frankly speaking I'm not ready. Things are going wrong nowadays. The clock keeps ticking and who can stop it ? nobody yeah nobody. Probably the proverb that says "TIME IS MONEY" is true. We can't go back to the past to fix our fault, we can't stuck in the past because there is a thing we can let go. I'll try my best through all this Storm, so that it is a quote saying "Everybody wants happiness, nobody wants pain but you can't have a rainbow without a little rain". I'm going to end this post it seems I talked a lot about how my feeling was. Its sound boring so goodbye everyone hope your days are better than mine. Be thankful.

Newborn

Hollaaaa I'm back on track like finally. It has been ages since my last post hahaha yeah I'm super-duper busy now. I'm graduated from high school that means one out of my zillion goals of life have been reached its yay! now I'm working hard on my ielts preparation its my decision and i must fulfill it! its a must and i will pass my ielts test and go to the university that I've choose I'll go to Taylor's in Kuala Lumpur and majoring in interior architecture. Wish myself a zillions tons of lucks :D

SPARKLING

OHH, im so afraid this few days. im afraid that i cant pass the final exam :( im so terrible sad i dont know how to describe it in words :'( feels want to cry every second. i cried a lot today. im trying to do my best know. i promised my self to study hard and less sitting in front of the computer and trying to shut my phone off for a day. i feel so sorry that i dont study seriously last time :( buddha, just for this time i beg you please bless me on my exam, school life and my fams esp my parent. i know im wrong bcs i dont hear my parents words :( im sorry mom and dad :'( i cant say more my tears is about to fall down :'( im sorry and thanks god for blessing me joy, health and happiness :)

TOTALLY UNFAIR

life is unfair unfair unfair so unfair. but behind this i know there will always a reason for that :( and now its 9:56pm im crying for no reason and for nothing. now i realize that i really really need someone( a guy)to hold on. i need him to cheer me up while im sad. and to laughing together while were happy. but sometimes im scared to fall in love. im scared to accept the truth im scared to losing him (that idk who is he that will be).